Happy Bday Jeff

Leading up to yesterday, typical of of all "hard Jeff days" sucked. Still riding high on the adrenalin of the tourney which (as you know Jeff) was incredibly successful in more ways than I ever would have imagined.  Was flooded with so much of your contagious love (byproduct of your huge heart) it was truly nothing short of miraculous - said from someone who is more distant from organized religion now so it seems than any other time during the past 5 years since your death. But it was truly that ...a testament to your love and those who love you...more people coming out of the woodwork to help with the tourney or grow the fund then every before. We [ok, it was you :) ] made local news bud -- which I think will go a long long ways towards getting us out of the infancy stage of the fund and at least walking some. Reconnecting with Arkee at Dan's suggestion and I feel like we are flyin'. Then of course your many "signs and synchronicities" as Lori McDermott would say -- which have increased in number and really the only things at times (like yesterday) that keep me going. Two incredible songs - "....we are only here on borrowed time" on tourney morning and "far away" yesterday, on your birthday -- just blows my mind Jeffer. Thank you - thank you - thank you! I absolutely HATE every minute of every day and then some -- that your body is gone. My heart bleeds every time I think of this which is often. But I am in awe of the fact that your strong strong spirit is more vibrant today -- right now even at this moment --than I would ever have imagined.

Seems you are the one, my love, giving ME gifts on your birthday. As I told Doug yesterday, I love you (too) more than you can ever imagine.  ----mom